Your Arm Felt Nice Wrapped Around My Shoulder.

really weeeird day.

i don't even know what this feeling is.. i feel happy, and sad, and hopeful, and lonely all at the same time. i guess it's because of work today. i need to think seriously about what steps i can take to help myself out this year, i think. but then again, it just feels like i can't win. when i distance myself, it hurts. when i stay close by, it hurts. this year needs to cut me some bloody slack tbh. xD still, things can only get better, ne? ^-^

stocktake today. Simon accidentally trod on my foot, and then did it again, on purpose, when i whined. and me and Charlotte failed EPICALLY at topping stuff up. oh, and nabbed the fourth Percy Jackson book, which is an amazing series actually :') never find time to actually read anymore, but meh. we'll see. i'm really paranoid that i looked ginger all day today. there's a definite hint of orange going on in the Geohair, and i have no love for it. MERH.

oh, and a customer asked for my number whilst on tills. "would you like a receipt with that?" "no, i'll just take your phone number if that's alright." CLASSY. he was quite fit though. .. yeaahh. xD doing 8 - 12 tomorrow. painfully early mornings, YAY. still, i like getting home at 1:30ish and then having a massive nap in front of Supernatural or The Mighty Boosh. then waking up at 4:30 and staring at my phone, waiting on the text message that isn't going to come.. Geo, you idiot. xD i don't know why i spend so much of my life waiting. figuratively, as well as literally. i mean, i spend a disgusting amount of time waiting at bus stops and train stations because i just go everywhere, but that's besides the point. i seem to always be waiting for something to happen, for somebody to be sorry, getting my hopes up for things that just aren't going to occur. but hey.. you can take the girl away from her dreams, but you can never take the dreams away from the girl.. :')

i'm only just realising how shoddy my eyeliner looks in that photo. fuck my life. 

oh, bugger. Lee's opening tomorrow as well. Lee facking haaates me xD i don't even know why. i've never given him a proper reason to.. okay, well, maybe that's a lie. but he's holding such a hench-off grudge over it :L Martin and Ant and the others have forgotten about it. just live and let live, for fack saake. xD never miind. i stay out of his way if he stays out of mine. though actually, i've started to really stick up for myself lately, which i'm quite proud of.. i mean, i usually don't take shit anyway, but i get properly defensive when people are taking the piss now. not in an overreacting kind of way, just showing them not to fuck with me.. good tiimes. xD

i have an addiction to innocent smoothies. they're actually the broth of the gods. hehee. i'm such a child. a lot of people are actually coming back into my life today..? o.o David's girlfriend dumped him, so naturally, he's speaking to me again, and Gardy and Fraser have both been chatting to me, and Maddy and Luke are always commenting on my stuff.. symbolism, yaaay :D maybe the people i'm really hoping on will follow suit. they better. i bloody miss them. <3

it's so funny, i used to have so few guy friends and now the vast majority of my friends are guys, just as i'd hoped it would turn out.. i have much love for my guys. <3 i choose all the weird, different, one-in-6billion types. i don't know how this happens :') but i'm not complaining. of course, my two best girls are always my very flavourites, nothing'll change thaat :L but having my lesser menagerie is also shinyhappy. ^-^

ffs Geo. stop turning your Blackberry over, you don't have a text, you're not going to get a text, give up already you absolute bellend. :L

time to curl up in bed with Enter Shikari (.. not literally. though i wouldn't complain.) and a strawberry milkshake. i could do with a good hug, tbh. but aahh well.. comfort eating until you drown in a big pool of obesity and listening to ahmaziing music is always a good decision <3

<3 Geo x

you had a fast car
is it fast enough, so we can fly away?
we gotta make a decision -
leave tonight, or live and die this way

now remember when we were driving
driving in your car
the speed so fast, it felt like i was drunk
the city lights lay out before us
your arm felt nice wrapped around my shoulder
and i had a feeling that i belonged;
i had a feeling i could be someone..